Last night we watched
Diane Sawyers interview with Jaycee Dugard and it really hit me how precious our kids are and how I don't always appreciate them.
This summer has been a little rough and the kids honestly have been driving me nuts!! I'll admit that I have had moments that I wished I could hit the pause button on being a mommy and just be alone for a while.
If I hear "Hey Mom" again, my head may explode or implode or just roll off my body. For some reason, my daughter says "Hey Mom" before e-v-e-r-y s-i-n-g-l-e thing she says. I'm the only adult around all day, why does she need to keep saying it???
The fighting makes me want to just run away sometimes, I feel like a referee.
The various items of the household that are always flying through the air drive me nuts.
I have to repeat myself
constantly to both kids and sometimes the grown up boy in the house :-)
I could go on and on and on, but then I feel guilty because my kids (and husband) are the best things in my life and I would absolutely cease to exist if something were to happen to any of them. How can I think bad thoughts about them?
I'm going to work on being more patient, more loving, a better parent. I'm going to work on just being here, mentally and physically for them. How could I not want to spend time with these kids?
At the end of the interview last night, Jaycee Dugard's mom told a story. One Monday morning over 18 years ago, she was running late for work, again. She decided not to go kiss her girls before she left because she didn't want to be late. She didn't see her oldest daughter for 18 years.
I can't imagine what that was like.
I love my kids more than life so I will strive to be a better parent, a better person because you never know what the day may bring.
I will take the time to kiss and hold and love my kids as much as I can.
I will take the time...
